Had a lovely time listening to Shankar Vedantam while doing the dishes.  He has such an interesting voice, I think I’d hate it if he were my professor.  But in these stories, it really works well and is gentle on the ears.  The first episode was Is he Muslim?  My takeaway from it was the absurd power media has in creating implicit bias.  Has that always been the case, though?  Iirc, one of the main reasons Mahatma Gandhi was involved with so many newspapers was to be able to reach a vast majority of people to spread ideas.  When you understand the power these guys have, it seems silly to spend it on reality shows.

I then went into Steven Dubner and Freakonomics.  SD seems to have the same voice inflections as SV!



I was having a good willpower day, on most fronts except hoopla, over the past week. My weight’s seeing 145 after months.  I don’t feel bloated and actually a bit energized.  And that willpower wilted in the face of cheesy pasta.  Feeling the bloat.  Will get back on the wagon tmrw.

BFU made a movie about Indians coming to NC.  The best bits were the coming to America stories, they were moving and powerful.  The rest was a hodgepodge.  I was limited in my praise.  She tells me scores of people come to her after each showing, hold her hands, have tears in their eyes and thank her for making this movie.   She says they get the heart in the movie and are not nitpicking.  Have to remind myself I don’t need to know if I’m wrong or the others.  If they like it or BFU is only seeing compliments, then more power to them.  This doesn’t have to be binary except for my ego.



I started the blog post yesterday, must have left it untouched.  I went to see Babaji today, even knowing how much he has declined, I was not able to stop my tears when I saw him.  He was sleeping in his chair when we walked in, and woke up a few minutes later.  He appeared startled to see so many faces and kept going around each face in a cycle.  One girl was holding his right hand.  Ratna told me later this was to prevent him from thrashing around and hitting himself.  He was twining his feet together and others ahead of me were massaging his feet, trying to keep them apart.  I took over from the previous person, the first time I had the privilege of touching his feet.


What James Clear doesn’t talk about is sustainability.  I said this was the kind of person I am, set a minimum threshold, and followed through for what, a week?  And then cycle down.  Discouraged.  And the Naladiyar is boring 😦


Went to a Kathak solo this evening with DD.  Folks from the previous era came over to say hi and do the you’ve grown so much thing with DD.  One asked – are you in college? Where?  UC B?  I rue the next words that came out of my mouth.  Ha, the other end.  Why Bhagavan?!

The kid who did the solo was amazing, her fingers were mesmerizing.  I was so worried er ghungroo were coming off.  She was losing energy in the 108 chakkars, but pulled it off, her teacher exhorting her to not stop.  And there’s something about these efforts that brings tears to my eyes.  Solo kid was accompanied by kid on a flute, so incredibly clear and gorgeous.  Flute kid has older sister too.  Older sis is now in Stanford, has a summer job and so was not present.  When people’s kids go to these “name” universities, their voice drops, a minor hesitation.  They hurry through the name hoping the rest of us won’t hear it.  Is this in my head or really real?  Dadaji would have been so proud.   Flute kid’s mom, I’ve met twice since I went back.  She just glows.  Solo kid’s parents drove her to YC class from Sac every Sunday.  That proves it, they were both given the child raising handbook.  Oh well :/


It’s going to be almost 100 days of #45.  I was listening to Patrisse Cullors on Politically Reactive.  She said Palestinians call Israel 48 as a form of protest and similarly, she’s going to use 45 to refer to Twitler.  I couldn’t find anything in Google to corroborate the 48 story, but going with 45 as it feels slightly less gaggy.

I don’t laugh anymore when watching Colbert or Maher or even John Oliver.  It’s more a pained grimace.  And Maher – I’m disagreeing more with him that I ever did before.

DD – 2/28/2017

I miss my POTUS.  Today was Twitler’s first address to the nation.  I used to tune in to POTUS’s speeches not for policy, but for the eloquence.  The beauty in the words and the musicality in his address.  I can’t even bear to hear this guy’s voice.  How could people dislike POTUS and be enamored of this guy?  The brain falls apart to imagine people could have actually voted for him.  How can you trust a guy who lost $900m?  Who boasted that he didn’t pay any federal taxes?  I still recall the clip where he stood with a water bottle, sprayed it around, mocking Rubio.  How can anyone respect the man?

There’s hyperventilating in the media when one of the Rs speak up.  It was McCain a couple of weeks ago.  Oh look! The man who was mocked earlier is now unleashing his vitriol.  Oh how great!  All the breathlessness of people expecting a catfight.  Like in Bridget Jones’ Diary where the guy runs into the restaurant and with suppressed glee announces fight!  And then 42 says mildly, oh, I don’t like racism – and the crowd goes wild again.  Should the response not be, what took you so long, mister?  Or, really, this is all you got?

All around the country, Jewish community centers and schools are getting threats about bombs in the building.  What horror!  People are being evacuated, police coming in and sweeping the place.  A few weeks ago, Netanyahu declared Twitler was a friend of Jews.  And no further statement from Israel on these threats, today Twitler says these threats are to make him look bad.  Children in kindergarten are asked to march out of their classrooms holding each other’s hand.  Receptionists are in tears – fear, anger, helplessness – on receiving the phone call and Twitler can think only of how this reflects on him?  See first paragraph.  How?!  If it is on this wide a scale, we should have answers or leads by now, no?  But WaPo and NyTimes have little coverage on this.  It should be wall-to-wall, no?  Why is it not?!

I was thinking about how important it was for me to work at a job I believed in.  That my daily 8+ hours netted into a positive contribution to the world.  I heard about this ballot measure for SF – set the new bar closing times to 5am instead of the current 2am.  The reasoning for – people who come out to dine after a movie or theater need a drink with their dinner.  A woman was parrotting these lines.  ok, too sleepy to continue